Waiting and falling

Patience is a virtue that I have always had trouble with when it comes to long wait periods. I was doing really well, but it's moving past the ideal time for teachers to get hired again. I have applied to so many schools, whether online or through mail. I lost count a long time ago. Every open job that I qualify for, whether I live close or not, I apply for. Out of all those applications, I've only had four interviews. Some call back to tell me the bad news and others have not given any news at all. It's hard to not know at all period. This whole process has been quite heartbreaking. It is so discouraging to constantly be rejected knowing that there is nothing else you would rather do. I have no idea what is going wrong. Do I give bad interviews? Is my file bad? Do I have bad references? I am so torn at what the problem is or what I am doing wrong. How is it so difficult to get a job? There isn't a whole lot that I am qualified to do beyond my degree. For other things, I am extremely over qualified. This is definitely a test at my ability to handle really tough situations. It's not fun and brings back a lot from old wounds. Going through this feels so lonely, not to mention being far away from home through this process. There is nothing to fall back on if nothing pans out. There is nothing left but faith. This is so much harder than I could ever have imagined and I feel so alone, even with all the friends and prayers I have. The bottle of emotions spills over in the secret. I am sure hoping that this will all get better and change. I'm unsure how much more I can handle, especially the rejection.